yoz... juz finished playing pt.. hmmm... going to be her bdae soon.. hahaz..last year celebrated her birthday last yr wif her.. hahaz.. guess we wont be this yr.. sad though.. but anyway as long as she is happy :) i'm happy for her :) hmmm.. hope she gets what she want and do well for her promos.. hmm.. i shall switch off my computer and rest earli tonite.. nite nitez everyone..

I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one

I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child that lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know im home

They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
The call in times gone by
The crying in the rain
You know ive wasted half the time
And i'm on my knees again
till you come to me
yeah

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know im home
I know im home
I know im home

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when im lying in your arms
i know im home

; TURNING INSANE ON 30.9.03

home at last.. hmmm.. went to sch for ob lecture.. was okae.. went through fast.. wasnt much of a torture.. after that was project time.. brain dead.. i shall talk in phrases today.. after project.. ate at design..muslim food..nice..after that went shopping.. stress for presentation.. hahaz.. understand me? hahaz.. havin an oral presentation next week.. muz wear formal.. bet i suck in formal.. i suck in everything anyway.. Kevin Lau = SUXOR.. hahaz.. hmmm.. i shall go do other things now.. byez...

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yo yoz.. blogging again.. hahaz.. bet my blog muz be the most boringest blog in the world.. yeah.. boringest.. my word.. i invented it.. hahaz.. boredom is seriously one of my most hated things on earth.. muz find a way to get rid of it.. hmmm.. sch was boring today as usual.. had accts lecture.. after tat had CSA lab lesson.. tat lesson nv fail to be slack man.. hahaz.. the tutor is just so slack.. slacker den the slackest guy in the world.. i tink u get my drift.. hahaz.. i am juz toking crap...

Don't know how much more of this i can take..
One day i am just gonna be gone.. just lyk tat and no one is gonna notice my absence....

; TURNING INSANE ON 29.9.03

Been a real bring day again.. slept through most of it.. hahazz. seriously dun feel veri well.. today has been bad.. i have been tinking abt her the whole day!! keep hoping i oculd patch with her.. wat the f*ck is wrong wif me.. she will nv want back anyway.. hahaz.. y am i such a desperado? hahaz.. tat is wat my heart is telling me.. my brain is telling me to ignore her.. cuz she hurt me so many times!! tat was wat i was toking abt yesterday.. and currently i tink my heart is winning... Kevin, kevin... y r u so stupid?
Should i listen my heart or listen to my brain?

; TURNING INSANE ON 28.9.03

yoz.. morning.. hahaz.. had dinner at fish and co wif her last nite.. had seafood platter again.. hahaz.. i was GREAT!@!@! hahaz.. juz love it so much!! kevin = pig.. hahahz.. yesterday brought back so many memories.. so so many. there was juz so many times yesterday i almost borke into tears.. but i didnt of course!@! hahaz.. kept tinking abt her the whole nite though.. my heart is telling me one thing.. yet my brain is tekking me another.. i realli dunno wat to do..
Should one follow his heart or his brain?
haiz.. realli miss her so.. how come i still love her so? haiz.. i shall go off now..

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yoz.. homie at last.. hahaz.. hmmm.. onli got a slight headache today.. maybe cuz i liked the weather today.. today's weather was great! i love rain.. it reflects exactly how i feel.. hahaz.. no one cares anyway.. i love rain.. everytime it rains, i would feel like going into the rain and stand there.. it just feels so great.. the feeling of the raindrops hitting against ur skin, cooling and sure can perk someone up.. hahaz.. sch was boring today other then during ob.. i juz love my ob and apel tutors. hahaz.. actually everyday sch kinda sux.. and it is going to continue to be sucky so i guess i will hafta learn to accept it.. ppl onli tok to me when they want something from me... y should i care so much for them anyway.. hmm.. i tink i going off now.,. bye beyzzzzzz..

; TURNING INSANE ON 25.9.03

yoyoz!@! hahaz.. i find tat i am the happiest in the morning cuz i tell myself everyday is a new day!!! YEAH... but i bet after sch i'll juz be the same as last nite.. nvm.. i shall be happy for as long as i can.. hahaz.. nvm.. i tink i shall change for sch now.. nothing much to do at home either.. i guess i'll come back tonite den.. byez..

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yoz.. havin a bad headache now as usual.. seriously tink i haf some brain cancer or sumthin.. hahaz.. i hope i get cancer though.. wont hafta go through life.. hahaz.. and nv nv ever crush someone u see veri often.. hahhaaz.. hmmm.. doing my econs project.. its crazy with all these deadlines coming up.. hahaz.. guess i should haf started much earlier huh? i reali feel that i haf been doing a lot a lot of the work in my group.. i feel so used.. no one realli cares how i feel huh? juz becuz i am smiling all the time.. ppl tink tat i am a doormat.. my temper has realli become realli short these few days.. everything juz gets to me..
Cant someone come and give me a hug tat i haved wanted,
Give me the love tat i haf longed for...
its realli hard to find true friends nowadays.. they will only be friends with u if u can be of use.. i am one of those hu gets used.. i realli wish to get away from all this.. i cant take much of this anymore.. y muz i be such a nice guy? i realli wish i could juz end all these troubles and go away...

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

; TURNING INSANE ON 24.9.03

yoz.. home at last.. havin a realli bad headache now.. hahaz.. i tink i going to take a short nap.. nothing much to comment on though.., day was pretty boring.. i seriously do not noe wat is wrong wif me.. hahaz.. i am havin a crush on someone and i seriously dunno y.. hahaz.. i shall go orr orr now.. nitez. hahaz

; TURNING INSANE ON 23.9.03

hahaz.. in sch now.. doing nothing... real bored.. hahaz.. havin a realli bad case of fluj though.. hahaz.. i tink my nose is gonna fall soon with the constant sneezing.. hahaz.. this flu is realli getting on my nose though.. i tink the mucus flowing from my nose can save a country in a drought.. hahaz.. tat must haf sounded rtealli disgusting huh? hahaz.. and i am seriously running outta tissues.. i tink i am gonna drown in my mucus soon.. hahaz.. anyway going off now.. buaiz...

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yoz.. CSA lesson now.. hahaz.. most slack lesson you can ever find in the whole world.. hahaz.. feeling real sad mnow.. read :her" blog.. hahaz.. today is juz a sad day.. hahaz.. everyday is pretty sad for me.. life sux i tink.. hahaz.. nv happy.. waiting for class to finish.. y the hell am i toking in phrases.. hahaz.. realli did this blog in a short time.. did it in less den 2 minutes.. hahahaz.. going off liaoz.. class finishing soon.. buaiz..

; TURNING INSANE ON 22.9.03

Morning morning!!! Everyday is a new day.. always try to start it with a smile.. Thats what i always tell myself.. hahaz.. but not very easy to do so man.. day by day, i am finding harder to keep a smile on my face.. maybe i am juz changing.. was going through my yearbook.. hahaz.. brought back so many memories.. then saw the picture of my track teacher.. she is so pretty man.. hahaz.. but seeing her made me tink of "her".. hahaz.. Why? you may ask.. cuz there was one time we went out for dinner together at parkway pizza hut.. hahaz.. fun day.. haiz.. i realli trying veri hard to forget abt all those things we did.. but it juz keeps popping up now and then in my mind.. hahaz.. felt realli blissful tat time though.. but the higher the expectations, the more it hurts when it fails.. tat is even true abt relationships.. hahaz.. learned this in organisational behaviour.. but its juz common sense.. hahaz..
Anyway im going off to sch now.. beginning to dread going to sch... byez for now

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To tell or not to tell.. that is the question.. hahaz.. i am so lost now.. tinking whether i should tell or not... haiz.. hmmm.. lets change the subject.. hmmm.. finally watched turn left turn right..hmmmmm its very nice.. wonder why my fren tell me it isnt nice.. hahaz.. havin a headache now..
Pondering abt lotsa things..
Whether is it betta to watch from afar or risk losing it at all by approaching it..
Whether is it betta to be loved and lost den never to be loved before...

; TURNING INSANE ON 21.9.03

Yoz.. Im actually home earli on a sat!@!@ hahaz.. such an achievement!@!@.hmmm.. going to take a nap soon.. feel lyk a pig.. lol.. sleep and eat.. nv exercise.. hhaaz.. i tink a pig actually exercise more than me.. hahaz.. got pung sei today.. i hate getting pung sei.. hahaz.. nvm.. hu would wanna go out wif me.. hahaz.. today my pool played quite well.. hahaz.. wats the pt anyway..
My existence in this world is not to be noticed...
So whats the point of my existence in this world??
Anyway i go take 40 winks now.. nite nitez...

; TURNING INSANE ON 20.9.03

yoz. back again.. juz finished my game again.. hahaz.. hate life so much u noe.. i tink life is only good when u end it.. hahaz.. hmmm... so bored.. so wassup everyone? i bet the ceiling is up.. i just hate myself.. love hurts....

; TURNING INSANE ON 19.9.03

hahaz.. i am so confused now.. my heart is feeling sumthin... yet it is not.. i am not sure.. haiz.. hate myself.. y cant i be gud looking? i juz hate the way i look.. i hate myself...... what am i good for? haiz.. nvm.. life is what i make out of it.. hahaz.. i always seem so cheerful huh? this is how i am feeling everyday.. a way to let everything out.. to vent my frustrations.. hahaz.. no one to confide in.. no one to hug me when i need one.. no one to listen to me.. hahahahz.. i am seriously a loser in life.. hahaz... i seriously dunno how i can go on smiling everyday.. i admire myself for tat.. hahaz.. haiz.. lets hope tml will be a better day... haiz........... this is the only thing i cna do to make myself feel betta..i wonder how it feels lyk to be loved.. i haf been in relationships.. but none of them realli loved me.. i loved them whole heartedly... but in the end.. my heart was dropped..
Shattered into millions of pieces..
Spent so much time picking the pieces up..
Cutting myself in the process...
When i finally picked everything up and stick it back together..
I give it to another gal and it gets shattered all over again..
I realli wish there would be this gal who would take good care of this fragile heart of mine.. i dunno how much more of this i can take.....

; TURNING INSANE ON 18.9.03

Yoz!@!@!.. in a gud mood today.. something happened and i am not gonna say wat.. hahaz.. another gud thing tat happened the game i am playing has improved!@!@!@ FINALLY they took away the lag.. hahaz.. so happy.. later going back to playagain.. hehe.. i tink i am a gaming freak.. going off now.. buaiz

; TURNING INSANE ON 17.9.03

Morning!@!@ Just woke up.. hafta go to sch soon.. i dread going to sch.. sch was so intersting the first few weeks.. but as time goes on.. everything is being so monotonous.. this is so sucky.. haiz.. nvm.. i shall go get ready for sch.. byez

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yo yoz.. backie.. juz finished playing my game.. got a splitting headache now.. hahaz.. headache still play game huh? ihahaz.. got this stupid headache from playing tennis today.. the sun was scorhing my skin off.. the heat can realli kill me.. after the game.. i tink i got a heatstroke.. now havin this realli painful headache.. haiz.. nvm.. i tink i should go get some sleep now.. nite nitez

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Just got a new skin.. hahaz.. life is seriously gettin on my nerves.. its 1230 already.. betta sleep soon.. gotta wake up earli for csa tml.. Hmmm.. there is so much going on in my mind now.. i am so very lost.. maybe i just shouldnt tink too much.. i tink too much for my own sake.. anyway gud nitez.. me go or or liaoz.. nitey...

; TURNING INSANE ON 16.9.03

yoz.. backie.. hahaz.. juz suffering from depression.. haiz.. hate life.. whats the purpose of my existence in this world? Is it to make people happy? i really do not see a point in life like this.. haiz... life is nv good... i juz hafta make the best outta it i guess.. skool was bad.. finally tml is friday... can sleep in late... haiz... life juz seem so veri veri empty.. beginning to feel tat empty slot in my life.. this realli empti feeling... i tink i go fill myself up with water and food now.. byez...

; TURNING INSANE ON 11.9.03

yoz.. Backie.. hahaz.. finally finished my webproject liaoz.. hahaz.. spent so much time on it.. the teacher betta gimme gud marks.. hahaz.. sianz.. feel damn stupid toking to myself on a webbie though.. hahaz.. but its betta den nothing.. hmmm.. tml skool starts again.. somehow i am acually looking forward to it.. hahaz.. life at home is boring.. hmm.. tats all for today...

; TURNING INSANE ON 7.9.03

yoz. juz finish playing pt.. hmmmm... still not feeling sleepy yet.. so sianz.. life is juz so boring.. need to find something to keep me occupied.. ahaaz.. wat to do... dunno lehz.. go fishing for goldfish maybe.. argh,, wat crap.. anyway go lie on my bed and slck liaoz... come back another day...

; TURNING INSANE ON 5.9.03