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Y DRAINED BY ANGER.





Y INSANITY.
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Where'd you go
By: Fort Minor

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time with,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
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8:46 PM

yoz.. homie..was in sch.. today was realli bad.. my ear hurt soooo much man.. hahaz.. slept for only around 3 hrs plus last nite.. cuz of my hurting ear.. hahaz.. sleep wake sleep wake.. couldnt sleep at all.. den today she forwarded me a msg.. hahaz.. some farnie msg.. even though it was only some forwareded msg.. hahaz.. i cheered me up.. guess i still love her a lot.. haiz.. nvm.. hope time will make me lose my feelings for her.. cuz she do not love me anymore.. hahaz.. hope i can forget abt her fast.. but i doubt so.. hahaz.. we were together fopr abt 2 yrs man.. total of both period.. hahaz.. nvm.. if she wants this ill accept it.. haiz.. i guess ill go rest my poor little ear.. ouchies man..


; TURNING INSANE ON 31.10.03

12:22 AM

juz did something realli stupid.. i asked her if she ever thinks abt me.. hahaz.. of course she will say sometimes.. hahaz.. she was juz trying to cheer me up.. no one would ever tink of me.. hahaz.. but anyway she tried to make me feel betta by saying she tinks of me sometimes.. hahaz.. nvm.. i never did expected an honest answer anyway.. ill go sleep now.. nite nitez everyone!


; TURNING INSANE ON

8:00 PM

yoz ppl.. mr deaf here.. lol.. pain man.. hmm today was quite a fun day.. went ktv.. hahaz.. went crazy in there.. shouted my lungs out man.. hahahahz.. sang some pretty sad songs.. one of my personal favourites.. first of may.. nearly tearrd when i sang tat song.. hahaz.. cuz u all oready noe.. was tinking of her again.. other den tat, the day was pretty fine.. other den the fact tat i was a bit deaf.. hahaz.. now im home, its a diff case.. everytime i reach home.. i change back to my quiet lonesome self.. hiding behind my laptop.. toking to my blog, playing my game.. not toking to anyone else.. hahaz.. loser rite?i sound like some loser mugger.. hahaz.. but honestly i haf put ion less den 6 hrs for my exams so far.. hahaz.. maybe only 5 hours onlieh.. maybe not even 5.. hahaz... hope my course grade can help me pass.. hahaz.. juz had dinner.. 933 roasted duck and chicken! hahaz.. but it hurts to eat it.. the ear infection causes the jaw to hurt too.. hahaz.. so cant realli open my mouth big.. hahaz.. couldnt realli enjoy it.. haiz.. someone kill me pls man.. hahaz.. realli torturous.. hurting on both the inside and outside.. hahaz..

Bee Gees - First of may

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

(chorus)
Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
And you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
But guess we'll cry come first of May.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

(chorus... )

When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
Do do do do do do do do do...
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.


; TURNING INSANE ON 30.10.03

10:26 PM

hahaz.. is it worth it? making people happy at the cost of my own happiness? Y am i so stupid.. y muz i always be nice? i haf no one to turn to.. to share my burden.. am i relali so stupid to do so?
I am feeling so lonely...


; TURNING INSANE ON 28.10.03

6:36 PM

ARGH!! juz finish dinner.. eating dinner was so uncomfortable.. the pain cause my jaw to hurt to.. hahaz.. and i seriously tink i getting a fever.. hahaz.. gud man.. hahaz.. can rest more..argh.. juz so painful.. i tink ill juz go lie on my bed.. cant mtake the pain no more.. urgh.. bye bye bloggie for today.. :)


; TURNING INSANE ON

4:11 PM

OUCHIES!@!@ my ears are hurting like crazy man.. i am seriously going to abstain from swimming for a long time.. i've got infection in BOTH EARS!@!@ u noe how painul it is? seriously man.. wonder if i will go death.. the last time this happen.. my right ear became a little deaf.. hope this doesnt turn out worse.. its so painful.. havin a headache from the pain...URGH!!
someone pls save me.. hurting on the inside and hurting on the outside.. how much worse can it get...


; TURNING INSANE ON

11:15 PM

What a really want is a hug.. hahaz.. haiz.. my ear hurting like crazy.. dun mind it being some chronic disease and i die from it.. hahaz.. juz kidding... bye bloggie i go sleep now..

There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It's caused by the absence of you


; TURNING INSANE ON 27.10.03

9:09 PM

hahaz.. bought some games today.. hahaz.. went to jog today.. hmmm.. den went for a swim.. hhahaz.. feels damn nice!@!@ hahaz.. but i got a ear infection.. hahaz.. hope the swimming doesnt worsen it.. ahhaz.. aiya.. dun die can liaoz.. lol.. haiz.. boring man.. finishing my revising liaoz.. hahaz.. haiz.. life is juz so boring.. soo veri boring.. haiz.. 1 word to descride.. monotonous...yawnz.. i come online for no point.. hahaz.. no one toks to me and i got no one to tok to.. hahz.. u r the only one i tok to bloggie.. lalala.. hahaz.. i make a very pathetic human huh? haiz.. such a failure.. hahaz.. hmm.. yeah.. i noe the meaning to market failure! i can remember!@!@ hahaz.. not bad.. my mugging went quite well.. hahahz.. i dun want much.. juz gimme 4 a can liaoz.. hahaz.. wif this minimal amt of studying i put in as if i can get 4 a.. hahaz.. nvm.. im a failure in life anyway.. wats one more failure to me.. hahaz.. anyway bye bye bloggie.. ill go take a nap now.. juz soo tired.. tired of life tired of myself.. haiz.. i find tat i am seriously a depressed guy.. hahaz..
feel like shyt.. ppl only see me on the outisde.. see me smiling everyday.. tinks i am very happy..
i want someone hu can see me on the inside.. care for me.. haiz.. too much to ask for anyway.. hahaz.. im such a lousy guy anyway yup.. hahaz.. shall stop crapping.. bye i go nap liaoz..

Never am i to find salvation...


; TURNING INSANE ON

11:14 PM

hmmm.. had a boring day today.. juz stayed at home.. realli bad day.. my ear is hurting again.. this time the other ear.. ouchies man.. pain like wat.. hope nothing goes wrong.. hahaz.. oready one ear deaf deaf liaoz.. hope this one doesnt become worse.. hahaz.. if not i go deaf liaoz.. hahahaz.. going deaf still laugh? hahaz.. dun care lahz. deaf deaf lorz.. anyway only slightly deaf.. still can hear wat.. juz not clearly.. hahaz..

missing her..
To be or no to be...
that is the question


; TURNING INSANE ON 26.10.03

11:11 PM

feeling miserable again.. hate night time.. i will keep tinking of her.. i tink i go sleep now.. nite nite...
Suffering in silence


; TURNING INSANE ON 25.10.03

6:50 PM

hahaz.. its 7 on a sat nite.. and i am still in sch!!@ hahaz,, i tink i like my sch quite a lot.. hahaz..sianz.. juz finished studying.. now surfing the net.. haiz.. so sianz.. emtiness.. tats how i feel.. hmmm.. later wat should i eat?? so hungry.. need to eat soon.. if not going to haf gastric.. hahaz.. still remember last time she hates when i skip meals.. and i haven eaten anything the whole day!@! hahaz.. now feeling hungry liaoz.. should leave the hunger alone.. and it shall go away.. ahhaz.. can slim down this way.. lalalaz... :( haiz.. -_-. hahaz.. hate myself.. keep tinking hows she doing? wondering wat she is doing.. hahaz.. i realli need to keep myself occupied yup yupp.. maybe i shall sleep a while on the couch... bye bye..


; TURNING INSANE ON

12:00 AM

hahaz.. love baileys.. juz had some again.. got choya too.. hahaz.. both oso nice!! but i tink the baileys got some prob wif it.. hmmmm.. i seriously hope i dun become a drunkard.. lol.. she said i got a wide general knowledge.. hahaz.. but whats the use of it.. still got hurt.. no matter how much i know.. i nv be smart enuf.. i cant even tell if a person loves me.. hahaz.. met joanna today.. hahaz.. she still looks as like usual.. other den the fat shes not wearing any glasses.. shes attached too.. hope the guy treats her well! hope its not like mine yah! all the best! haiz.. hate myself.. drank quite a lot of alcohol again.. lol... feeling drowsy now.. lol.. styomach feels wierd though.. after swimming all tat chlorine and the alcohol dun mix well.. urgh.. dun feel well... haiz.. hope i sleep and nv wake up.. i shall go off now.. bye bye..


; TURNING INSANE ON

9:42 PM

i wish i could fall sick and die..
wishing hard..
so veri hard..


; TURNING INSANE ON 23.10.03

9:39 PM

todays presentation went pretty well.. quite proud of myself :) my tutor ommentyed tat my attention getter was gud.. hahaz.. wats the pt anyway.. hahaz.. and my csa coursework got an a.. hahaz.. but wats so great abt tat? nothing seems gud to me.. i juz hate myself... my bro coming home soon.. this means i cant use the com anymore.. y is my life so bitter? cant evern use com freely.. y cant god juz end me right now? ease my suffering? today during my presentation i wanted to cry.. so much so much.. all my feelings juz came up again.. its hard keepiong everything down..

I am just the grass tat u pass by in your walk past the field..
Y cant u just burn me down..
juz step on me and kill me..
i live for no reason...


; TURNING INSANE ON

10:51 PM

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student lying down under a
big tree near a big grass area.
Then, suddenly, the student asked the teacher,

Student : Teacher, I'm confused, how can we find our soul-mate? Can you please help me?
Teacher : (Silent for few second, than he answer) Well, it's a pretty hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher : Look on that way, there are a lot of grass there, why don't you walk there but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead. On your way, try to find a beautiful grass and pick it up then give it to me. But just one.
Student : Well, ok then... wait for me... (walked straight ahead to the grass field).
A few minutes later...
Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Em, well I don't see any beautiful grass on your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found few beautiful grass, but I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up. But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked up any. Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happened in real life.
What is the message of this story?
* Grass - is people around you
* Beautiful Grass - is people that attract you
* Grass Field - is time
* In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that
there will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime,
cause remember "Time Never Goes Back"


; TURNING INSANE ON 22.10.03

9:18 PM

yet another day has passed by.. its juz boring as ever.. watched interview wif a vampire.. how i wish i could become one.. i could juz leave everything behind.. i realli wanna leave this god forsaken world suffering.. if i were to leave one day, will you all miss me? i doubt anyone will.. i wanna leave this place.. juz go away.. start a new life.. i hope i could meet an accident.. get amnesia..den maybe i will get a peace of mind.. never will you ease my suffering..
All i want is to look from far away..
Just to make sure that u r safe from harm..


; TURNING INSANE ON

1:43 AM

you hug her goodbye like its nothing, while all you want to do is hold on forever, but you let go, smile and walk away. then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same. because try as you might you can't make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free... and letting go... thats when love hurts most of all...
this is so true isnt it?? hahaz.. sitting here alone again.. cant help tinkin abt her.. nvm.. shall go and sleep now.. bye bye.. and dun worry abt me.. i wont kill myself.. ill wait for someone to kill me.. so my family can get insurance!@!@ hahaz


; TURNING INSANE ON

10:27 PM

yoyoz.. homie at last.. went to gelare tpday.. NICE!@!@!@ always like eating there.. den walked around and around.. den met joanna.. hmmm.. caught up for a little while den she went off wif her fren.. we should meet another day and really do some catching up.. hmm... today was a pretty fast day.. tml got a rehearsal for my presention.. sianz.. later muz prepare.. or maybe tml... hmmm.. go play gun bound now.. bye bye~!~


; TURNING INSANE ON 21.10.03

10:26 PM

cant sleep.. as usual.. hahaz.. blogging again.. only place i can turn too... i realli miss her so.. today whole day keep tinkin abt her.. everything we did in the past.. juz cant stop tinkin.. ARGH.. i am gonna smash my head against the wall....... haiz.. guess love doesnt mean anything..
Love hurts


; TURNING INSANE ON 20.10.03

6:35 PM

Kill me please....


; TURNING INSANE ON

6:34 PM

hahaz.. juz cried again.. was out.. held my tears till i reached home.. y am i still shedding tears for her.. there are countless times where i shed tears for her.. maybe if a gal were to make u shed tears.. it means she doesnt love u.. hahaz.. tot abt the past again.. so many happy times.. hahaz.. most recent one where we went to escape theme park.. hahaz.. was a real fun day.. or maybe she was juz faking it.. maybe everything was juz a act.. hahaz.. and we were like tokiong abt going to her house for new year.. toking abt getting married.. and saying she will never leave me.. loving me always.. tat was sent to me less den a week before she left me.. and i still have tat msg in my fone.. what shit.. y am i so stupid?? to be taken in? if u dun love me.. y muz come to me in the first place?? all the times we spent together.. went cycling in ubin, wanting to go fly kite. hahaz.. but nv did get a chance to.. there are so many fun days we spent together.. but now i tink back.. maybe she was juz acting happy to make me feel better.. i would gif a million dollars for someone to kill me right now.. pls kill me.. anyone pls juz kill me..
theodore was mentioning abt cx. hahaz.. he asked is he in team singapore? hahaz.. so wat he if he is?? wat the hell is wrong.. so wat if he is famous.. i guess treating a gal nice is pointless.. they dun appreciate it..

If you didn't love me in the first place..
Why the hell do you toy with me?
You like to see me suffer?
See me cry?
Fine you got what you want...
But why do i still love you so?
But i guess your words are just as empty as my heart...


; TURNING INSANE ON

11:30 PM

sore throat.. haiz.. life is pretty meaningless.. go sch.. come home.. go sch.. come home.. u get wat i mean.. now watching the bowling show.. the hitomi has a husband.. den she fall for the other guy.. juz because he is gud looking.. haiz.. y r gals liddat?? i haf lost faith.. lost my soul.. how i wish someone could kill me right now.. i would gif everything i haf to the person hu kills me..
My heart has been there always..
But it has never been picked up...


; TURNING INSANE ON 19.10.03

12:17 PM

My heart is remains the same.. what i say before still applies.. juz tat it doesnt matter anymore.. im juz plain stupid.. tats wat my name ludicrouz stands for.. stupidity... juz realli sad.. cried my heart out last nite.. on my bed alone.. hahaz.. only did tat when everyone was asleep.. im juz plain stupid.. bye everyone..


; TURNING INSANE ON

8:56 AM

elloz.. haiz.. i guess it is all ending now?? i guess i really dun stand a chance.. how good it would be if i could drpo dead right now.. she said i was reating her too well.. and she its still going gaga over tat guy.. i guess ill juz leave her.. i dun stand a chance after all.. being beside her for all these time dun count at all.. nvmm. ill juz leave her.. even though i still love her so.. she juz hates me anyway.. so this is wat she wants.. and this will be wat ill give her.. its all coming to an end now.. ill juz keep lving her till she disappears from my life.. haiz.. nvm.. as long as she is happy.. bye bloggie..


; TURNING INSANE ON

1:21 AM

elloz bloggie.. yep.. im back.. hahaz.. not playing game today.. wanna sleep though but juz cant.. tinking too much.. yep.. i always think too much.. now i juz wanna sleep.. drank 2 cans of beer down at 1 go.. but still not sleepy.. how how how?? haiz.. staying up alone is juz so boring.. so wat to do now?? haiz.. i should juz gif up.. i tink ill juz go lie on my bed.. try to sleep.. haiz.. i should seriously learn to tink less.. dun tink too much.. wat is not meant to be urs will never be.. i haf learnt tat lesson.. hmm.. nothing much to say though.. i tink ill go lie on the bed.. hope the beer makes me drowsy.. all its making me feel now is bloated man.. lol.. hahaz.. ill go lie on my bed now.. bye bye..


; TURNING INSANE ON 18.10.03

11:42 PM

hahaz.. i am here again.. thou shall not play gunboung tonite and shall sleep earli.. hahaz.. tinking of her again.. shall not say her name.. it is like some forbidden word in front of denise man.. hahaz.. come to tink of it.. i haf been by her side for more than 2 yrs now.. even when she broke wif me.. i was still there.. ppl may say tat i am stupid.. but i juz love her to much to let her suffer.. to get hurt.. haiz.. am i realli stupid for being like this?? have been wif her through so many things.. hahaz.. but juz dun count.. hahaz.. nvm.. shall go sleep soon.. nite nite bloggie..


; TURNING INSANE ON 16.10.03

10:05 PM

yoz.. bloggie.. sry man.. been neglecting you these few days man.. nv chat wif u much.. hahaz.. too bushy playing game yah?? still busy playing.. so next few days will be neglecting u too.. Dun Angry K!?!?@!?@ hahaz.. y am i toking to my blog?? i am playing my game everyday man.. it is so cute!@!@!@ hahaz.. i tink i going in to play more now.. byez


; TURNING INSANE ON 15.10.03

1:34 AM

hmmm.. its almost 2 am.. and i am sitting in front of the com... dunno wat to do.. lost of words... feeling so alone..in person and in the soul.. feel as though the whole world is abandoning me.. issit realli so? Am i the only person who is feeling like this?? Why must i be so stubborn? So stupid? Life is just getting monotonous.. Just the passing of each day in a blink of an eye.. Nothing ever happens to me.. the gud things tat is.. everything bad befalls on me.. but nothing gud ever come..
Am i to suffer this all my life? What the hell am i saying man.. i realli dunno.. life juz dun seem as meaningful... Need To find an aim.. A real strong need.. before i do anything drastic.. Yep.. anyway i shall go or or koon liaoz.. nite nitez bloggie.. nitez everyone....


; TURNING INSANE ON 14.10.03

1:44 PM

yoyoz.. getting less things to say.. so many things bogging my mind down.. tired of all of this liaoz.. dunno how muhc more i can take.. juz so so tired.....


; TURNING INSANE ON 11.10.03

9:54 PM

DELETED*.. deleted my previous entry.. those tat get to read it.. yep.. i made a mistake.. i am onli human u noe.. i am sooo sleepy... deciding to play game or to sleep... hmmm.. ill go and tink abt it..


; TURNING INSANE ON 9.10.03

9:13 PM

yoz.. feeling realli worried for tml man.. havin presentation.. hoope i dun screw up.. yep yep! EVERYONE WISH KEVIN LUCK!@!@!@ hahaz.. feeling so sleep dunno y.. hmmm... shall go rest now.. i tink i quite earli though.. hahahz


; TURNING INSANE ON 8.10.03

11:00 PM

yoz bloggie.. i am home.. sch was super boring.. went to do project today.. haiz.. today was a realli sad day.. when is all this unhappiness going to end?? if it doesnt end soon.. i will end it myself.. haiz.. nvm.. i got nothing much to say on a day with nothing happening...

Happy I may seem,
But no one knows of the melacholy in my soul...


; TURNING INSANE ON 7.10.03

10:38 AM

yep.. morning.. going to sch soon.. so bored.. feeling down though.. today having a meeting for adventure club.. my first meeting.. hahaz.. so sianz... i think i am going to be sad throughout today... hahaz.. i'll try top cheer up!@!@ :) muz be happy!! start the day on the right note.. bye everyone.. thou shall take his leave to go and change.. bubye


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10:05 PM

yep yep!! home at last.. VERY VERY LONG DAY TODAY!! hmmm.. i am lau ah beng.. hahaz.. i mean the role i play in my short video clip today.. was filming for our ob project today.. it was quite fun!! though it was pretty tiriing man.. hahaz.. shagged.. I have such a sense of achievement man.. hmmm.. life is gud.. i am seriously moving somewhere wif my projects now.. hehe.. i am so elated.. today was a gud day man.. hahaz.. filming was successful thanx to some outside help from jeremy, glenn and tannia's little bro.. he is real cute man.. look super small.. lol..

Tannia: You should treat your younger betta man.. hahaz.. Yep.. And u are one farnie gal.. Is my face really tat farnie??? why muz you laugh when you see my face man.. *sob*

Jeremy: And my face realli look farnie?? why muz you guys laugh when u see my face?? hmmmmmm...

Denise and Chantel: You two make two helluva AUNTIES!! hahaz.. born to be them man.. next time i need ppl to be aunties i shall find u all..

Jiemin: And you study!!! hahaz.. i'll help you do your blog yah?? hahaz.. And all the best for ur papers!!!


; TURNING INSANE ON 6.10.03

1:41 AM

hahaz.. was tinking of playing game now.. i tink its getting pretty late though.. hahaz.. its going to be 2 o'clock soon.. hahaz.. today realli tot of 'her' so many times.. driving me nuts.. hahaz.. hmmm. i tink i shall go catch up on my well deserved sleep.. nite everybody...
Its better to lose your pride to someone you love,
rather then to lose someone you love over your useless pride..
its so true isnt it?
NITEZ


; TURNING INSANE ON 5.10.03

1:07 AM

AH.. homie.. tiredness.. loooong day today.. hahaz.. pretty much did nothing though..hahaz.. so bored.. life is seriously getting monotonous.. lol.. played pool juz now.. hahaz.. nothing new.. pool is pretty broing now it seems.. hmmm.. kevin is growing outta pool soon i tink.... hahaz.. need to find something to entertain the great kevin.. or else he will sure bore to death.. hmmm.. i haf pretty much nothing to say though.. but these few days keep thinking of her.. everything juz reminds me of her man.. haiaz.. realli need something to occupy me...


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9:27 AM

morning everyone.. had a bad dream last note.. hahaz.. not actually bad though.. juz tat i dreamt of 'her'.. hahaz.. am i realli missing 'her' so much? hahaz.. hmmm.. still feeling so happy!! finishing the projects already!!!!!!!! hahaz.. sound so much like a little boy huh?? Little Kevin.. i dun tink i am veri little.. hahaz..wat the hell.. i shall go off now and play my game.. tata


; TURNING INSANE ON 3.10.03

8:36 PM

hahaz.. reached home.. hmmm. feeling very happy.. u noe y?? cuz my projects are finally finished!@!@!@!@ hahaz.. going to play game now.. bye byez!!!!


; TURNING INSANE ON 2.10.03

3:01 PM

yoz.. in class waiting for my comm skills tutor to come now.. sianz.. fooling around ion class. everyone is going crazy though.. ling is sitting beside me staring at my screen.. we r juz so bored.. finally finished my freaking projects.. printed it out liaoz.. realli nothing to do.. nothing much to say though.. i shall speak lyk my twin.. PEACE OUT.. and CHILLZ


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8:24 AM

Good morning everybody! lol.. finally a burden is off my shoulders, the project are coming to an end.. peace at last.. hmmm.. exams coming in 1 month's time.. betta start mugging soon.. havin ob tut later.. juz love my ob tutor man. hhaz.. he LIKE NOT funny.. thats my language.. LIKE NOT funny mean he is funny.. hahaz.. what a wierd way of speaking rite? and yeah.. found a companion to go watch infernal affairs 2 with me!!@!@ but hafta wait 2 weeks first though.. hmmm.. watch the prequel.. it was so nice!! hmmm... i shall go off now.. ciaozz


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