Hi everyone,i am back again.. hahaz.. just had a dream of her last nite.. i have no idea why.. woke up smiling.. hahaz.. tat was wierd aint it? haven been thinking of her for a long time.. anyway watching Lost made me think a lot of stuff.. cherish the one that loves u and the ones that you love, you never know whats gonna happen to them tml.. dun waste time, tell them u love them and make the best use of ur time..
anyway wonder when am i gonna enlist into NS..
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25.3.06
Hi ppl, thx for caring.. im pretty alright except for the intense pain in my ear.. hahaz.. having a stupid infection again.. pretty deaf in the ear again.. hate having ear infections, but they just keep coming.. just like the bad things in life, but we still have to live through it. i hope this heals fast and dun become anything serious.. hahaz.. my ear is really having difficulty hearing man.. hahaz.. anyway congratulations to all who graduated!! and for those who had sup paper, hope u all did well!!
Life is just like a track and field race,
you have to overcome all hurdles to reach the ending line,
if you ever trip, and fall
pick urself up and carry on
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19.3.06
Hahaz.. I may go out of the way to help people, but i never feel appreciated.. i never am.. or maybe i am wrong and people are just bad at expressing themselves.. people forget about me, leave me out, have they ever thought about how it is like to be me? how many even know abt my bdae, or that i still exist in their life? I think i am just someone who is exhaustable, something everyone can do without when i am not needed. Even when there are group outings, no one bothers asking me, so should i even feel glad that i am excluded? maybe i juz dun realised i am being ostracized. anyway working nxt week to forget everything.. and earn some money maybe to go thailand.. to get away from everything.. never missed in singapore anyway..
Pariah, outcast, whatever it is, im only found when needed, and discarded when not
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10.3.06
im sorry i made u feel that way.. and if u tink my friends are so barbaric as in to do anything to u.. den im sorry i haf the wrong friends.. and i still protect u when they say bad things abt u.. Why??? because i still think you are a good girl.. you have the right to love someone else.. and i should not be in the way.. but when i got souvenirs for u, u didnt haf to say those things.. it was really meant as a souvenir just like what i have gotten for everyone else.. i might not mind for u to say i am barbaric if u ever tink so, but try to leave my friends out.. they might not be up to standard as ur uni friends, but they are still my friends.. thanx.. the 3 years is not wasted, its filled with wonderful memories and pain, everything that is worth remembering.
Maybe when we 2 cool down we may really be friends again.. u urself are not very cool headed either, whenever i chat with you, you get worked up easily too.. this is taking that i am not forgotten 2 yrs down the road..
Friends are forever and not just for today, or when you need help.. This is to everyone out there.. cherish your friends.. Make an effort before you lose them..
Fate is not an ally, but an enemy
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7.3.06
hahaz.. she said it herself.. guess tat would be the end of the friendship.. i am not even worth it as a friend.. she says she cries whenever it comes to this.. then why do u make it come to this.. does it not hurt for me? she makes it seem so easy.. getting a new bf.. even shaking me off as a friend..
I would never fall in love again
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5.3.06
hahaz.. im back.. but yet.. i wish not to be back here.. she even forgot abt my bdae.. hahaz.. i tink wat she really wants to for me to get out of her life totally.. maybe its just time to do so.. she doesnt even treat me as a friend.. everything ends..
even life..
so whats forever?
Good nite everyone
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